Forbidden Fruit

My scarf in your handsIn an instant life changes
Strained now, undue certainty handed on a platter
Your disregard for damage done, an unfair observation, all mine
Your armor of strength is undiluted
It seems painful to wear in public
Wanting and not wanting, The scale tips out of my hands
Tacit silence, pleading to conceal
Lives entangled, children, family, expectation
Yearning to alter reality today, not to disappoint.
Stolen minutes to touch your face. To breathe with you
Naked mouth to naked mouth. No lies, just us
My resolve crumbles under the tips of your fingers
You kiss me gently, I taste you again
The persona of my friend is not the persona of my lover
I retreat under the guise that you no longer exist
Unworthy actions all around. I beg your forgiveness
Your isolation must weigh heavily; I see your soul retreat
Unwilling to accept what I have done
I retreat